pocket full of sunshine

Monday, September 29, 2008

you all can never imagine how much i feel like cursing and swearing now.
!@#$#$%^%&^*#%!

i lost my phone.

yes again:(

this time in the toilet!

ARGHHHH

i really feel like cursing the person who stole my phone, yes although i am to blame for leaving my belonging unattended but why must u take my phone LAR! all my contact that i get back so difficulty are like GONE again. all my friends number:( my birthday is not around the corner so just how many pple will be msging me lar. practically none:( i seriously feel like crying can. imagine next time if people were to call or msg me i will have to go like :" you are? paiseh i lost my phone thus i lose all my contact" it's so freaking..... i did that during my birthday when i have birthday wishes. the feeling is seriusly SUCKY! but i am still considered lucky? cos the stupid fucking person didn't steal my wallet-.- imagine if that person steal my wallet also, i would most probably jump down the building.

bibi! thank you for rushing down. but next time can u PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE answer calls from unknown number and not let it ring for so long and so many times. it's most probably me.

i am really unlucky with phone this 2 years. ARGHHHHHHHH.

i strongly believe in retribution

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by jessie=] @ 11:25 PM

this is so PRETTY!! LOVE IT TO THE MAXX! hahas. all thanks to sabi:) it's like a year since someone help me do henna.

a week holiday after law UT later! YEAHHH:)

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by jessie=] @ 11:29 AM

Sunday, September 28, 2008

mummy was in a bad mood this morning, louis was in a whinning mood but surprisingly daddy was in a good mood:) and i am in a mixed mood.

rotted whole day at my grandma house and thanks to hend i managed to understand my law. eat, sleep blah blah blah.

can't i have the right to even decide what i want or feel like blogging. be it happy or unhappy stuff can't i just blog. never mind about that. from now on, no more unhappy stuff on my blog from this very moment.

END OF STORY.

and oh ya did i mention that maybe i can help out as a assistant leader! well, it's something new for me and a pretty good chance! i think i have mention it before that i am aiming to go for the next grading. i will just take things as it comes and not think too far:) thinking far doesn't seems to get me anywhere. all the best for me all right.

BIG HUG for all my love ones:)

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by jessie=] @ 10:33 PM

Saturday, September 27, 2008

a simple thing that can get us unhappy over.

thank you so much:)

i love mummy to the max! she can't bear to see her daughter being bullied. LOVE YOU MUMMY:)

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i have been thinking about something for a super long time. for everything that i gain i will lose something else. why can't i just have the best of both world. friendship, relationship, kinship, my interest, it just seems so difficult to juggle everything well. interest will take up my time thus forcing me to spend lesser time with friends and stuff, but is wrong to pursue something i am interested in? my dad have always been telling me that when i want something i will have to give up another but what if i don't want to give up anything? it's getting me so tired at times:( yes i am unreasonable. i admit. but i don't know what else am i suppose to do.

hope the holiday will cheer me up:)

You must give up the way it is to have it the way you want it...

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by jessie=] @ 2:03 PM

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Ig was cancelled on Monday because of the grading sunday. i am aiming for the next grading! buddy and iris will be gg multi starting next month! so i will have pple to accompany me!:) so went to bibi's sis house to see the baby. he's like so cute! remind me of my didi a few years back. so small, so adorable. oh ya cos he's not so cute anymore! he go against me and sometimes roll his eyes lar!

pictures time!!

this is the cutest picc!
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HOHOHO! Merry Christmas!!

lol. okay, i am trying to be funny here. upload these photos some time ago but was too lazy to blog. HAHA! well, photos are in pretty random order.

spongebob sweet from buddy! all de way from hongkong okay!

and this made by bibi! so sweet of him right, at first those alphabet are without colour, i requested for them to be coloured=x

some days back we were suddenly in the cam whoring mood so yaaa! photos:)

tadah! no more... lol.

school is pretty much the same, with the same routine everyday. but good news! my pp report got approved!!:) i have to start on my poster really soon. have got about a month for me to complete the poster. and oh ya did i mention that bibi was very nice to me ONLY RECENTY!=x (*he requested for this part=x) JOKINGG! but he was really nice to me, he finally changed his woodblock thinking and accompanied me to watch the aikido grading on sunday! sat down cross legged for nearly 2 whole hours! and he's coming down to rp nearly everyday, accompanying me for interviews and stuff. LOVE YOU SO MUCHH:) i am bloggin about good things now so when there are negative stuff do expect me to blog them out also! HAHAHA!

law sucks!:( i dun understand a single shit! it's like so hard to get information off the web, cos i have no idea which resource would be more reliable. i need law tutor PLEASE! cos i will be having UT next monday and there will be no more moderation unless i score 50% of the ut marks. no moderation = 99% fail. cos with moderation for past 3 semester i can score a C or even a B when i have shitty scores like 5/20?? i seriously need to study soon.

GOODBYE!

I MISS MANY PEOPLE:(

AH NEO, CC, NS, HF, JEA:( ages since we met up...

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by jessie=] @ 1:40 PM

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

i think i should not talk to people i have not talk to for a long time. or even if i do i should be polite and not be usual self, and perhaps start off with:"hey how are you, long time since we chat" so fake... ANDD one big reminder! you cannot be sarcastic with people you haven been in contact for a long time, they might just think you are a fucking retard or some bimbotic ass can.

nvm about that, on to happy issues:)

watched death race at home first before i went with bibi to visit his eldest sis's baby! oh my SO CUTEE:) got flat nose like mine. HAHAHA! Dallas Chan Hao Wen. Hao is my bro name and wen is my younger bro name. i only see the baby showing me 2 kind of faces

face number one

face number two. the so called "want to shit face" HAHA!

took photos with the baby although he is like sleeping 90% of the time.

baby and mee:)

his future uncle. sounds so old can.

bibi's sis

happy family:) they look so sweet together can.
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after tt hitched a free ride to amk and den to bishan ourselves. slacked slacked and slacked.... and dinner at swensen:) LOVES:) tried the sizzling pan banana somthing one. HAHAS.

back home after that.

and i am freeting over my pp again:( the teacher from kumon don't want to reply my sms and i cnt get my information about the franchising of kumon LAR. i seriously feel like crying:(
have less than 2 week to resubmit my report again:(

i helped bibi spike his hair! like tt then can see the diffeences ma=x

back to sports law again.
goodbye.

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by jessie=] @ 11:41 AM

Sunday, September 14, 2008

i always complain that i cnt find a close friend in rp. is it just me?

sherman said that he is my good friend even though we only see each other during ig. and thus i realized that i do have friends around me it's just a matter of facts whether i want to open up to them or not and also whether they want to open up. and so i got a new good buddy in school! happy happy. maybe can promote to best friend soon right. HAHA!

i cannot sleep lar and i scanned through my contacts and there is nobody i can crap with except ah neo. and my brother who can't be bothered about me lar. IRRITATING! my pp report got rejected and i am suppose to rework LUHHH! it's so not fun okay, seems like i really got to make a trip down to kumon to find out more about franchising and stuff. BORINGGG.

i still cannot make up my mind about the grading. time is running up lar. SO NOT FUN.

and i saw a yellow dress tday luhh. so nice! random random.

oh yea! i will get to see bibi's sis BABIES tmrrr:) so excited.

finally bibi is back and i got someone to talk to.

goodnight...

this post is seriously full of crap.

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by jessie=] @ 11:22 PM

to go or not to go for grading???

ARGHH! i cannot make up my mind again LUHH! it's like so irritating because this stupid thing have been bugging me for quite some time already:( very much i want to go but yet i don't know if i am good enough, and i am just finding some random people to be my uke. i want girls! they are so much more flexible and more easy going. i wish i can just be more decisive.

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by jessie=] @ 12:19 PM

Thursday, September 11, 2008

ah neo is so.....

very obvious she was the one who posted the previous entry but she actually deny it sia. usually she will just say ya it's her blah blah blah... but well, content wise i would not disagree with her. hahas. and for cc info your new name is "ooi qi shui" as in carbonated water. don't ask me why it's qi shui because i have absoultely no idea why either, sw just came up with it randomly and it rhymes so i agree with it. HAHA! thank you so much ah neo:) LOVE YOU MANY MANY!

some pictures from class chalet like ages ago. my camera was with beam half de time i was in de chalet and he is such a lousy photographer! all de photos are like so blurr=x so not much pictures. it's like so nice of our faci to pay for the chalet! and we got a pretty big chalet.

credits to himm. han wee!

i did this with majong tiles. niice isn't it. E54l

those who were left in de chalet during de second night. frigging big chalet or rather de biggest i chalet i have stayed in so far. HAHA.

yi tonggg!

if there is a will there is a way.
i will do my part.
goodnights:)

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by jessie=] @ 9:13 PM

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

i love my darling, NEO SIAO WEI!!!

oh ya, i have new name..
i'm JESSIE HO XIAO QI!!
she's NEO DA QI SIAO WEI!!
and cc is OOI QI SHUI CHAI CHIN!! :)

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by jessie=] @ 7:31 PM

I AM SO SAD:( suddenly find not purpose in blogging. SHIT IT LAR. forget it. i am SUPER hungry now. my hair are dropping off VERY soon.

going to eat maggie mee.

bye

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by jessie=] @ 12:47 AM

Sunday, September 07, 2008

happy 13 month bibi!
so many up and downs but let's hold on alright!

no pictures recently LUHHH! but nvmm, use last time nv use before one.

most recent one. during my badae. HAHAS.
LOVE YOU MANY MANY BIBI:)

went out with ah neo the day b4 my school start. can view her blog for more details. hahas. i only have my zilian pictures to post=x

your truly=x

i pray hard for things to turn out well:)

school again tmr. BORINGGGG!

GOODNIGHTS..

AND OH YA!!
went out today and i saw the pink basket bag that i have been looking for... OMGG. love it SO muchh! but i bought quite alot of stuff recently so i got to control abit. HAISSSSS:(

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by jessie=] @ 10:03 PM

Friday, September 05, 2008

birthday post!!! it's like super belated... but nvmm cos there are pictures!!:) short and sweet with PICTURESSS;)

met up with roy and family first for brunch and they fetch us down to kallang leisure park to meet up with the rest of my cousins. COUSINS outing is LOVEDD can! HAHAS

in the toilet cam whoring, it feels SUPER cold in there can.

us before ice skating

during ice skating but my bro missing. hahas

went to watch mummy 3 again after that and dinner next at japan village in chinese. HAHA!

hana jie jie who join us after de movie.

let's pose with PEASSS! SO CUTEE!

US after dinner:) so satisfyingg

group photo again!!!:)

went to have yoghurt for desert after that and they gave me my BIRTHDAY PRESENT!! so surprised cos they didn't bring anything with them in the morning, ended up it was liying bf who went to buy when were ice skating. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!:) and i LOVE it so much!!! it my best company when i go school or when i am alone! hahas

surprised...

and TADAHH!!! my PINK zen mosiac!! so much LOVESSS! maybe creative should get me to be their embassordor or something;xx

BIRTHDAY WAS ENJOYABLE THIS YEAR!!!!!:)

many downs recently:(

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by jessie=] @ 2:29 PM

Thursday, September 04, 2008

so many stuff not updated cos i dun have the pictures!:( so sad.

holidays are over and it's school again. worked during my holidays and yes i hardly have time for rotting. class chalet pic not up, but i shall just skip to to the YOUTH AIKIDO MEET at SMU. RP won the demo champion team!! YEAH YEAH YEAH! LOVE RP aikido people to the maxxxxx! good job people!