i do NOT detest people who smoke.
what i DUN understand is why is there a need to lie or like cover up.
YES MY DAD is one example.


since i was young, i have always been asking my daddy why is he smoking. at that time, he always openly smokes infront of us. the reply he gave was that when we are 18 den he will tell us. cos apparently that's the "legal" age to smoke. there were times where my dad got angry with my bro and me because we were super rude when asking him to stop smoking etc. when my mum was pregnant with my didi, he tried to quit cos it's for the good of our family esp for my mum who was pregnant. we were all happy for him, because finally after many years he decided to quit. but he still got back to it again. I DUNO WHY and i never bother to ask him why again. because i feel whatever he say will all be excuses. but i guess the only good thing is that he no longer smokes infront of us ever since my didi was born. i know he smokes, but just not infront of us. i didn't care much anymore.

till my didi was of a more sensible age, he started asking my dad why he smoke etc. why is he so smelly at times, reeking of cigarettes smell when he comes home. my dad ALWAYS DENY when my didi ask. there was once my didi claim that he saw my dad smoking and he could even imitate all those actions. till then, my dad still deny that he didn't and that my didi was seeing stuff. he went on to say since when did daddy lie to you. i simple can't be bothered when i heard him say that. cos he is obviously lying to my didi!

till recently when we went to Malaysia, we were all waiting for my dad under the hot sun when we went sight seeing, thinking that he might have lost his way so we waited for him. BUT we saw him walking out smoking. MY WHOLE FAMILY, and that included my didi. mummy was pissed cos we all waiting for him under the hot sun while he was smoking away. my didi cried and told my dad that he lied to him, he saw him smoking and there is definitely no way my dad can deny. i can totally see that my didi was very upset, he went on to say that last time he did not lie and really did saw my dad smoke but my dad say he was seeing things. he cried really hard and it reminds me of myself when i was younger. cos i nv understand why my dad wana smokes. stress?? i duno.

if only my dad was honest and not hide it from my didi, he would not feel so sad. it's like the first time i see my didi crying because of this kind of issue.